I think I’m in rather bad shape. I was up too late, writing and rewriting, and then this morning I decided it was all wrong and went back to what was, basically, the original version. I feel like I’m on Sharp Edge and I just looked down.
I was really confident before. It was flowing beautifully, light comedy, good dialogue. Then I started thinking “Angst! Everybody’s writing Angst! And they are good at it.” I am not doing this right. I am not taking this seriously enough.
I know if I’d any sense I’d take a day off, catch up on sleep, do housework, go to the gym. Get some perspective.
And instead I just keep on banging my head against a brick wall, trying redraft after redraft and hating all of it.
Funny thing is, I’ve got exactly the story I’m happy with in terms of plot. I just can’t make it work in character. Maybe just because I’m sleep deprived. I’ve got to the point now where I routinely wake between 1.00 and 3.00 am and it takes anything up to a couple of hours to get back to sleep. Which probably has more to do with lack of exercise and SAD than any creative angst.
Going to a premiere of The History Boys tonight with Alan Bennett and Nick Hyntner speaking. It’s all been arranged by MGS as a drama fundraiser. Should be a great night out and just what I need, cos if I stay in I’ll just worry away at this stuff and get nowhere.
On a happier note, a very nice 14 page interview with DT in the Doctor Who magazine. Didn’t tell me very much I didn’t know already, but it did remind me that there is a place for just having fun with Doctor Who, and I think maybe that was a message I needed to hear.